Accidents...

What is with my boys hurting themselves lately! Two days ago, we had just gotten home and I was getting Chase out of the car when all of sudden Kyler started screaming! It was definitely a pain cry, but I couldn't figure out what was wrong. He was holding out his hand, but then kept saying, "Don't touch it, don't touch it!" when I tried to look at it. :o( I thought maybe he got stung by a bee or something. His fingers looked a little pink, but that's all I could see. I came to the conclusion that he must have grabbed the tail pipe on the car. :o( I tried to put some burn ointment on him, but he wouldn't have that. So we tried an ice pack and he didn't do well with that either. I went back to the ointment, Unguentine, cause I knew it would help with the pain. I stuck his hand over the AC vent for about 30 mins or so while we watched videos on my phone. He didn't struggle and had some quiet moment. So after about an hour of crying and screaming once in awhile in pain, he finally calmed down and got used to the ice pack. 

He kept his hand on the ice pack while he ate with the other hand. I let them eat while watching a movie that night. Special treat. ;o)

This is what his hand looked like yesterday. There is a big blister on his palm and one on his index and thumb. Poor kid! He seemed to do fine with it all day yesterday and today. But later this evening, he picked the skin off the one on his thumb. Ouchie! :o(

Then last month, while we were in sacrament meeting, he was leaning forward to put a hymn book awhile and slipped and smacked his nose right on the cubbie that holds them. Of course there was screaming as I'm running him and Chase out of the chapel. Then the blood started coming as we're rushing down the hall to the bathroom. We're pretty sure Kyler has Von Willebrand's, a blood disorder. So he bleeds very easily. He gets a bloody nose at least once a week. So you can imagine how fast he starts bleeding when he's hurt. :o(

Chase got a band-aide one night, so of course, Kyler had to have one. This was his only owie. Haha! He actually kept it on all night. I was surprised. 

Then Chase, later tonight, was pushing one of those little Cars trays (see Kyler's picture above) across the kitchen floor (against Mommy's say of course) and he slipped and caught his lip and tooth on the tray. He has a little cut above his front tooth and a puffy upper lip now. :o( Oh and when Chase cries really hard, he holds his breath. So as I'm splashing water on his face to snap him out of it to get him to breathe, he starts falling sideways (passing out) and bumped his head on the fridge door. I wasn't fast enough to catch him. :o( Poor kid. He wouldn't eat his dinner cause he said his tooth hurt. After some Ibuprofen, he seemed to be feeling better by the time I got him to bed. 

Several weeks ago, him and Kyler were goofing off in the shower and Kyler pushed him a little too hard. He smacked his butt on the faucet as he was going down. Ouch!! He was pretty upset about it. :o(  

My kids are so accident prone lately. :o( I'm just grateful, I haven't had to make any trips to the ER...yet. I'm sure the day will come. I just kind of hope it's when my husband is home to help with Kyler. 

I miss my husband...

Man! The military life is rough! I always knew it was probably difficult for all those military wives, I just didn't know how much so. I have so much sympathy for them!! I try to stay sane most days, but I don't know what to do to do that. I'm a single mom now. So I can't exactly go out and do a whole lot having my kids around. Plus, it doesn't help that we're poor. My kids drive me crazy some days and my house is always a wreck! (Which I can't stand). A lot of the time I just don't have the energy to clean up. I'm sure I could claim laziness too. ;o) It's hard being a poor, pregnant, single mom. Haha! I don't ever really have the money to pay for a babysitter so I can go out and do something for myself to keep sane, so basically I stay at home and go crazy most days. Haha!

I feel I have no "adults" to really talk to besides going on FB (which I'm probably on way too much). I don't feel that I really have any "true" friends out here. (Please no one take offense to that). I just would love to have at least one friend I can call anytime or actually wants to spend time with me and really tries to make that happen. One who just comes by sometime to say hi. Most days, that's all I need. Just a hug and to talk to someone besides a 2 and 4 year old. I'm not that bad of a person, am I? I want a friend who won't say no 98% of the time when I invite them to do something. I know I can try a little harder myself. I have tried a little, but probably not enough. I have been hurt SO many times in the past by so called "friends" that I find it very hard to go out of my way as much as I used to. Pathetic and maybe a little selfish, I know. I don't know that my heart can handle it. Especially right now. Plus, I almost feel guilty for taking someone away from their family by asking to come and hang out with me. Man, I am pathetic. Sure there have been people in my ward that have said, "If you ever need anything, just let me know." That's just not me. I don't like asking for help. I'm a little stubborn in that aspect. Plus, how do I tell someone, I just need a friend.

I hate having to go to bed alone at night. That is probably the hardest part. It makes it more of a reality that he's not around. I miss my best friend. We've been friends for 12 years and I hate being apart from him for this long. I hate crying myself to sleep on so many nights. I hate that I can't just call him anytime I want to. I hate that I can't just have his arms around me after a really rough day. It's hard. SO hard. I know I should be grateful that he will be coming home and he's not gone forever like so many military wives have to go through. If that ever happens, I think I might go a bit crazy. ;o) I am so grateful that he's willing to sacrifice and serve our country (and our family), I'm just selfish and would rather him home with me. :o)

Anyway, this post is not to make you have pity on me at all. I would rather you don't actually. It's not like I'm depressed and can't function at all during the day. I'm doing ok. Just lonely. I just needed to vent a little. Plus, I really only have like one reader now, so I'm sure most of you won't even see this post. Haha! I just needed to write out my feelings a little. (I should probably just start a journal again, huh?)